Me...

While I was thinking should I keep this blog or not, I was also debating should I post this in English or in Indonesia. But then I think, I will write with whatever language cross my mind. :)

Here I wanna share a little thing about myself.
How, and who am I in the eye of people, in the eye of myself.

1. Those who knows me, knows that I am artistic.
I love arts, the artistic blood flows in me.
I love music, I love photography, I love drawing, I love illustration, I love art and craft, and I even enjoy museums. I am attached with everything that is unique and beautiful in my eyes (and yes it sometimes really subjective). I love something different in arts and in human. In the other side, I am easily distracted with unbalanced shape or pictures (again, it's subjective).
I love red and white more than any colors, but basically I love every colors.

2. Those who knows me more, knows that I am interested in human.
I am interested in human's life. I have a big compassion for people's burden. I am amazed on how beautiful human's heart can be, and also how cruel a human can be. I am a really good listener and I remember almost eeeeeeeeevery story a friend told me. I am not easily influenced by gossips and bad stories about other people. I get excited with other people's happiness and blessing. And in some cases, my blue and sorrow days can be taken away when I heard people's won from their sorrow and burden.
In the past people's burden can influenced me a lot and makes me sorrow for days. Which I learn to control in for years, so it won't taken my own happiness. I can cried by days because of other people's broken hearts.
I cried easily, but usually I won't show it in front of other people.
I was once avoid sad stories in TV and reality show, as it will affected my days.
I was crying for days when I heard about Tsunami in Aceh few years ago, cried so loud after watching Slumdog Millionaire, and the scenery keep haunting me for days.
I remember every kindness given for me, even in small things.


3. Those who knows me even more, knows that I am especially interested in little children.
I am interested with children with special needs, children who weren's so lucky in their life, children who suffer in their life.
And God had given me this compassion loooong before I even have my own child.
My last final art project in campus is about street children.
My 1st books collection is about children with special needs.
And God gave me a child with special needs myself for me to love with all of my heart (which I will told you the story one day).
My hearts breaks the most if it's related with little human's life.
And when it combined to both of my interest: art and children, I am falling in love with children books, and every artistic projects about children rescue and campaign.

and almost the last...
4. Those who knows me a little recognize that I am a Christian easily.
Mostly because I just can't keep my mouth about Christian life and journal and the Bible, and His words and blablabla.. even when I am far far far away from Him.
But really little of people KNOWS that I still haven't discover my Christian life myself. I am falling in love with Jesus even though I feel I am not worth to even serve Him.

5. People said that I am an idealist
I don't know what to said about this.
I just know that I try my best to do what is right.


opsss... and 6. I talk to animals. :)